What am I?

I'm vegetarian. Even if people say I'm missing the best of life, I like to know that no animal has been killed to feed me. I care about them, as much as I care about nature, the world and the people. I love to help them. I'm happy to have a job where I can use my talents and knowledge to help people, it just feels right. I bike and compost, I try to save energy and resources. But don´t be fooled, I still can party and I'm a techish guy. I like having a life full of variety, that might make me look incoherent, but I'm what I am and I wouldn´t change that to follow an ideology. I do well and that's my belief.I guess that makes me a hippie, perhaps a weird one. I like to meet different people and places. No matter how snobbish or cheap, no place is bad to have a few drinks if you have good company. For that I try to try all kind of places. I don´t understand how people talk against discrimination while they discriminate snobbish people themselves. As in everything in life I think you can learn from everyone, everywhere and everything. I like to go to cultural activities. That's not because I know a lot about culture, but because I know that I don´t know and I want to learn. I know I'm not perfect, but still I prefer to have my own mistakes that to follow the correct answers of someone else. People call me crazy often, both in a good and in a bad way. I like it, perhaps I would find more offensive if someone told me that I'm normal, sane or just like everyone else. Life is yours to live it your way.

Getting up again!

Please don´t get mad, I know you told me not to do it. But I can´t avoid to miss you and today I was looking at your pics in cyworld. I saw some new pics of you. I remembered all those laughs we had. I must admit I became very sad at the beginning, thinking of the love we had and lost.

However now listening to the music you sent me, still looking the pics, I smile because we had such an awesome time, because I met you, because we are special to each other and because you will always be my bestest friend ;)

I once thought that if you say "I love you" again I would cross the Earth for you... I had to change my mind even if the heart (my heart) you took to korea has taken too much time to come back. Now I try to be strong and smile again, I have to set a new goal for myself. I always told you there should be 1-2 girls as beautiful as you in the world... now I have to find them! Now my wish is to date the prettiest girl, like I did in the USA.

tqm!

No matter how much I look for another sunrise...

...darkness surrounds me and the sun seems farther away every day.

I miss you

If I would know how much I was going to miss you...

... I would have been 1cm closer to you

... I would have been 1min earlier every time I met you

... I would have kissed you one more time everyday

... I would have made you smile one more time every now and then

cuz now I feel I would die to be 1cm away from you, for 1min to smile in my heart while I kiss you at least one more time

Today... Now... Tomorrow

Today I started to wonder when will it be the first day that I don´t talk to you...

Since I met you everyday we have at least crossed words once...

will it be today the first we don´t do that?

Today I started to wonder where will I find streangh to smile,

when thinking about you will only bring tears

how long will I find smile in our memories... maybe not too long

Right now I remember our happy moment together and I feel anger

I feel anger because cus I couldn´t live in paradise any longer

I'm angry cus I can't do anything to bring you back

Today I started to wonder how will I build love again,

if everymoment with you was so perfect so easily

now I feel lost and confuse with out you

Right now I wish this was just a nightmare

and that I would wake up again by your side sometime

and we would make fun stuff to get up even when both of us want to stay longer in bed

I know Tomorrow will be different

Empty

Full of new oportunities... but without the one I want

Mani saranghae na sexy egi... annyong

Sorry for so many things

Sometimes I wish I would do things in a better way...

Life is a song, where the music is around us and we have to make up the lyrics

Searching in a long playlist
I'm looking for a song
that can give the beat back to my hearth

Sometimes I walk singing in my mind
but the songs have become blue
and the sky is cloudy

still I'm looking for a sound
to wake up from this dream
to live with my eyes looking forward again

Maybe I'll find it in the voice
of a cute girl walking with me
and we'll dance illuminated by her smile

Love...

... I just keep waiting for the girl that will make it easy.

keeping alive...

Sometimes I'm yellow, sometimes red... others green, now I'm blue... still I have faith, still I'm waiting for you

The world is such an ugly place

The world is such an ugly place
where people just pretend they care
everybody fights just for themselves
like monsters walking everywhere

I hope the world will change
and that one day you'll be able to trust again
all the people could be nice
and we, all, we'll be better that way

I'm tired of living in this ugly place
and I'll try to change it to a better way
because surviving is not life at all
and people can learn to be good

I still can't understand
why even friends hit you so hard some times
like monsters playing with their monster friends
the world is such and ugly place

To a good economist, and a GREAT person

It was a hug, and a goodbye kiss, you could say it was the end... I would disagree
Now we are friends, and that means something for me
You could say it's not the same and that's true. But remember that most lovers eventually go away and true friends stay forever and in my memories you will always be.
I guess this may hurt you, the way it hurts me, but I love you still, not in THAT way, but you have a place in my hearth, close to the memories of the great days that I had by your side, right next to the greater memories that we WILL have as friends in the life to come.
With a hug, and a goodbye kiss we started it, and we now start a long, great and funny friendship.

Have fun!

If we only had tonight...

Let's share a kiss,
and find a star
let's see it together,
at least for a while

Under the moon
Let's share a moment,
'Cause I know
we only have tonight

I don't know how long
this will last
but tonight I can promise you
in my memories it will never die

You have my word
that no matter how far
I will remember you
once in a while

Maybe it's now much
please don't worry now
we knew this would happen
but it won't happen tonight

Let's spend some time
under a silent moon
creating a moment
that will last forever in my heart

We can cry for the future
'cause it's always different for the past
but if we do so we would miss
the only thing we have

Share with me
at least one last memory
give me at least one last smile
to remember in all my dark nights

'Cuz I'm better, just because of that

Over a 1K men I will walk alone to the victory of the all
I don't care if I cry, I don't care if I die I will walk though darkness to find a light for all
There are people who envy me 'cause they think I'm too good, 'cause they think I don't cry but they don't that's a lie
I'm sad so many days, looking for a single friend who would walk along with me and lose it all for someone who don't give a f**k

Still I walk along and try to put a smile on my face 'cuz I'm tired of people telling me what to do to be a loser like they
They say it's the way to live, to have a reason to smile by closing your eyes to the flames of hell that surround us
To be a loser, to be one more, to forget your dreams and buy what the tv says
I guess sometimes it's easier to have a fake smile and convince yourself that it's real than paying with tears for a real smile that only you can feel

the words of my life

I wish someone could understand
the words I want to say
someone who would think my words are right
the words that give meaning to my life

The secret passage in my garden

This is a short story I wrote several years ago, hope you like it...

It's strange I hadn't seen it before because it was there since I was a little child. Sometimes you find things in places where you would never search, that's why I didn't see that passage before, it was disguised. It was dressed like a tree. Yes, I know it looks strange, but it's true, that tree was a secret passage. It was a secret passage in time.

As I told you, I hadn't seen that passage for almost all my life, but now I see it clearly. Each time I see it, it's a travel in time, into my memory, that's how this secret passage works. I remember the first time I did that. It was after my father's funeral. I went to his house. The house where I lived when I was a child, and during those hard teen-years. I wanted to see it exactly as my father left it. I walked in all the rooms, the kitchen, and, when I saw the garden, something called me there. Once outside I saw that tree and just like that, without doing anything, I made my first time travel. I saw my father again, I saw him when we were planting that tree. And I saw him when he got inside and toll me "I have to go now. You have to take care of that tree by your own now. I trust you".

I have made many time travels since then, and every time when I have a problem I know I can travel to the past and find the answer in my father; in that old man that always was telling me something important, even if I wasn't there to hear him until it was too late

Life's like a looooooong road

Life lies in front of me as a long road to be traveled and the road goes and goes far beyond the horizon without reaching somewhere. On either side the desert extends as far as I can see, without giving me any hope by leaving my road. Still I can see a few roads crossing mine, roads where I can find people who will walk together with me for a while.

Still I keep asking the questions we all ask. Where is my road leading me?... will I find another road that will walk with me all the way?... is there a special someone for me?

Hope gets blurry as I walk under the sun without these answers.

I'm so confused some times, other times I just don't know what the hell is going on

Let me forget that I loved
Let me forget that she's gone
Let me forget that I felt
Let me have new hope

Let me find a new destiny
so that I can walk my way
no matter how hard it will be
It's far worst just to stay here

Going down...

I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
would you await for me there?
at the bottom of my life.
Will you be there in the last moment?
to hold me and save me.
Can I trust in that?
'cause that's my last chance, my last hope,
I have no strength, no will to come back
I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
faster every breath
Please be there
God, please hold me in the end

Gomenasai (forgive me)

Gomenasai

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was a one of a kind
A precious pearl

When I wanted to cry
I couldn't 'cause I
Wasn't allowed

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

Gomenasai
I let you down
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

.... I'm surprised how clear this song describes the tears in my heart today.

Make a wish, then make it true!

Nothing can stop you
once you decided
to give all for something
and never fail until you got it

Nothing can stop you
if you're brave enough
to give your life
for what you want

Nothing can stop you
you just have to chose
what's worth to lose
everything else for