Please don´t get mad, I know you told me not to do it. But I can´t avoid to miss you and today I was looking at your pics in cyworld. I saw some new pics of you. I remembered all those laughs we had. I must admit I became very sad at the beginning, thinking of the love we had and lost.
However now listening to the music you sent me, still looking the pics, I smile because we had such an awesome time, because I met you, because we are special to each other and because you will always be my bestest friend ;)
I once thought that if you say "I love you" again I would cross the Earth for you... I had to change my mind even if the heart (my heart) you took to korea has taken too much time to come back. Now I try to be strong and smile again, I have to set a new goal for myself. I always told you there should be 1-2 girls as beautiful as you in the world... now I have to find them! Now my wish is to date the prettiest girl, like I did in the USA.
tqm!
Friday, November 13, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
No matter how much I look for another sunrise...
...darkness surrounds me and the sun seems farther away every day.
Friday, September 25, 2009
I miss you
If I would know how much I was going to miss you...
... I would have been 1cm closer to you
... I would have been 1min earlier every time I met you
... I would have kissed you one more time everyday
... I would have made you smile one more time every now and then
cuz now I feel I would die to be 1cm away from you, for 1min to smile in my heart while I kiss you at least one more time
Friday, September 04, 2009
Today... Now... Tomorrow
Today I started to wonder when will it be the first day that I don´t talk to you...
Since I met you everyday we have at least crossed words once...
will it be today the first we don´t do that?
Today I started to wonder where will I find streangh to smile,
when thinking about you will only bring tears
how long will I find smile in our memories... maybe not too long
Right now I remember our happy moment together and I feel anger
I feel anger because cus I couldn´t live in paradise any longer
I'm angry cus I can't do anything to bring you back
Today I started to wonder how will I build love again,
if everymoment with you was so perfect so easily
now I feel lost and confuse with out you
Right now I wish this was just a nightmare
and that I would wake up again by your side sometime
and we would make fun stuff to get up even when both of us want to stay longer in bed
I know Tomorrow will be different
Empty
Full of new oportunities... but without the one I want
Mani saranghae na sexy egi... annyong
Monday, March 30, 2009
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Life is a song, where the music is around us and we have to make up the lyrics
Searching in a long playlist
I'm looking for a song
that can give the beat back to my hearth
Sometimes I walk singing in my mind
but the songs have become blue
and the sky is cloudy
still I'm looking for a sound
to wake up from this dream
to live with my eyes looking forward again
Maybe I'll find it in the voice
of a cute girl walking with me
and we'll dance illuminated by her smile
I'm looking for a song
that can give the beat back to my hearth
Sometimes I walk singing in my mind
but the songs have become blue
and the sky is cloudy
still I'm looking for a sound
to wake up from this dream
to live with my eyes looking forward again
Maybe I'll find it in the voice
of a cute girl walking with me
and we'll dance illuminated by her smile
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
keeping alive...
Sometimes I'm yellow, sometimes red... others green, now I'm blue... still I have faith, still I'm waiting for you
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
The world is such an ugly place
The world is such an ugly place
where people just pretend they care
everybody fights just for themselves
like monsters walking everywhere
I hope the world will change
and that one day you'll be able to trust again
all the people could be nice
and we, all, we'll be better that way
I'm tired of living in this ugly place
and I'll try to change it to a better way
because surviving is not life at all
and people can learn to be good
I still can't understand
why even friends hit you so hard some times
like monsters playing with their monster friends
the world is such and ugly place
where people just pretend they care
everybody fights just for themselves
like monsters walking everywhere
I hope the world will change
and that one day you'll be able to trust again
all the people could be nice
and we, all, we'll be better that way
I'm tired of living in this ugly place
and I'll try to change it to a better way
because surviving is not life at all
and people can learn to be good
I still can't understand
why even friends hit you so hard some times
like monsters playing with their monster friends
the world is such and ugly place
Sunday, April 06, 2008
To a good economist, and a GREAT person
It was a hug, and a goodbye kiss, you could say it was the end... I would disagree
Now we are friends, and that means something for me
You could say it's not the same and that's true. But remember that most lovers eventually go away and true friends stay forever and in my memories you will always be.
I guess this may hurt you, the way it hurts me, but I love you still, not in THAT way, but you have a place in my hearth, close to the memories of the great days that I had by your side, right next to the greater memories that we WILL have as friends in the life to come.
With a hug, and a goodbye kiss we started it, and we now start a long, great and funny friendship.
Have fun!
Now we are friends, and that means something for me
You could say it's not the same and that's true. But remember that most lovers eventually go away and true friends stay forever and in my memories you will always be.
I guess this may hurt you, the way it hurts me, but I love you still, not in THAT way, but you have a place in my hearth, close to the memories of the great days that I had by your side, right next to the greater memories that we WILL have as friends in the life to come.
With a hug, and a goodbye kiss we started it, and we now start a long, great and funny friendship.
Have fun!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
If we only had tonight...
Let's share a kiss,
and find a star
let's see it together,
at least for a while
Under the moon
Let's share a moment,
'Cause I know
we only have tonight
I don't know how long
this will last
but tonight I can promise you
in my memories it will never die
You have my word
that no matter how far
I will remember you
once in a while
Maybe it's now much
please don't worry now
we knew this would happen
but it won't happen tonight
Let's spend some time
under a silent moon
creating a moment
that will last forever in my heart
We can cry for the future
'cause it's always different for the past
but if we do so we would miss
the only thing we have
Share with me
at least one last memory
give me at least one last smile
to remember in all my dark nights
and find a star
let's see it together,
at least for a while
Under the moon
Let's share a moment,
'Cause I know
we only have tonight
I don't know how long
this will last
but tonight I can promise you
in my memories it will never die
You have my word
that no matter how far
I will remember you
once in a while
Maybe it's now much
please don't worry now
we knew this would happen
but it won't happen tonight
Let's spend some time
under a silent moon
creating a moment
that will last forever in my heart
We can cry for the future
'cause it's always different for the past
but if we do so we would miss
the only thing we have
Share with me
at least one last memory
give me at least one last smile
to remember in all my dark nights
Sunday, March 02, 2008
'Cuz I'm better, just because of that
Over a 1K men I will walk alone to the victory of the all
I don't care if I cry, I don't care if I die I will walk though darkness to find a light for all
There are people who envy me 'cause they think I'm too good, 'cause they think I don't cry but they don't that's a lie
I'm sad so many days, looking for a single friend who would walk along with me and lose it all for someone who don't give a f**k
Still I walk along and try to put a smile on my face 'cuz I'm tired of people telling me what to do to be a loser like they
They say it's the way to live, to have a reason to smile by closing your eyes to the flames of hell that surround us
To be a loser, to be one more, to forget your dreams and buy what the tv says
I guess sometimes it's easier to have a fake smile and convince yourself that it's real than paying with tears for a real smile that only you can feel
I don't care if I cry, I don't care if I die I will walk though darkness to find a light for all
There are people who envy me 'cause they think I'm too good, 'cause they think I don't cry but they don't that's a lie
I'm sad so many days, looking for a single friend who would walk along with me and lose it all for someone who don't give a f**k
Still I walk along and try to put a smile on my face 'cuz I'm tired of people telling me what to do to be a loser like they
They say it's the way to live, to have a reason to smile by closing your eyes to the flames of hell that surround us
To be a loser, to be one more, to forget your dreams and buy what the tv says
I guess sometimes it's easier to have a fake smile and convince yourself that it's real than paying with tears for a real smile that only you can feel
Sunday, February 03, 2008
the words of my life
I wish someone could understand
the words I want to say
someone who would think my words are right
the words that give meaning to my life
the words I want to say
someone who would think my words are right
the words that give meaning to my life
Sunday, October 07, 2007
The secret passage in my garden
This is a short story I wrote several years ago, hope you like it...
It's strange I hadn't seen it before because it was there since I was a little child. Sometimes you find things in places where you would never search, that's why I didn't see that passage before, it was disguised. It was dressed like a tree. Yes, I know it looks strange, but it's true, that tree was a secret passage. It was a secret passage in time.
As I told you, I hadn't seen that passage for almost all my life, but now I see it clearly. Each time I see it, it's a travel in time, into my memory, that's how this secret passage works. I remember the first time I did that. It was after my father's funeral. I went to his house. The house where I lived when I was a child, and during those hard teen-years. I wanted to see it exactly as my father left it. I walked in all the rooms, the kitchen, and, when I saw the garden, something called me there. Once outside I saw that tree and just like that, without doing anything, I made my first time travel. I saw my father again, I saw him when we were planting that tree. And I saw him when he got inside and toll me "I have to go now. You have to take care of that tree by your own now. I trust you".
I have made many time travels since then, and every time when I have a problem I know I can travel to the past and find the answer in my father; in that old man that always was telling me something important, even if I wasn't there to hear him until it was too late
It's strange I hadn't seen it before because it was there since I was a little child. Sometimes you find things in places where you would never search, that's why I didn't see that passage before, it was disguised. It was dressed like a tree. Yes, I know it looks strange, but it's true, that tree was a secret passage. It was a secret passage in time.
As I told you, I hadn't seen that passage for almost all my life, but now I see it clearly. Each time I see it, it's a travel in time, into my memory, that's how this secret passage works. I remember the first time I did that. It was after my father's funeral. I went to his house. The house where I lived when I was a child, and during those hard teen-years. I wanted to see it exactly as my father left it. I walked in all the rooms, the kitchen, and, when I saw the garden, something called me there. Once outside I saw that tree and just like that, without doing anything, I made my first time travel. I saw my father again, I saw him when we were planting that tree. And I saw him when he got inside and toll me "I have to go now. You have to take care of that tree by your own now. I trust you".
I have made many time travels since then, and every time when I have a problem I know I can travel to the past and find the answer in my father; in that old man that always was telling me something important, even if I wasn't there to hear him until it was too late
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Life's like a looooooong road
Life lies in front of me as a long road to be traveled and the road goes and goes far beyond the horizon without reaching somewhere. On either side the desert extends as far as I can see, without giving me any hope by leaving my road. Still I can see a few roads crossing mine, roads where I can find people who will walk together with me for a while.
Still I keep asking the questions we all ask. Where is my road leading me?... will I find another road that will walk with me all the way?... is there a special someone for me?
Hope gets blurry as I walk under the sun without these answers.
Still I keep asking the questions we all ask. Where is my road leading me?... will I find another road that will walk with me all the way?... is there a special someone for me?
Hope gets blurry as I walk under the sun without these answers.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I'm so confused some times, other times I just don't know what the hell is going on
Let me forget that I loved
Let me forget that she's gone
Let me forget that I felt
Let me have new hope
Let me find a new destiny
so that I can walk my way
no matter how hard it will be
It's far worst just to stay here
Let me forget that she's gone
Let me forget that I felt
Let me have new hope
Let me find a new destiny
so that I can walk my way
no matter how hard it will be
It's far worst just to stay here
Friday, July 06, 2007
Going down...
I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
would you await for me there?
at the bottom of my life.
Will you be there in the last moment?
to hold me and save me.
Can I trust in that?
'cause that's my last chance, my last hope,
I have no strength, no will to come back
I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
faster every breath
Please be there
God, please hold me in the end
would you await for me there?
at the bottom of my life.
Will you be there in the last moment?
to hold me and save me.
Can I trust in that?
'cause that's my last chance, my last hope,
I have no strength, no will to come back
I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
faster every breath
Please be there
God, please hold me in the end
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Gomenasai (forgive me)
Gomenasai
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was a one of a kind
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't 'cause I
Wasn't allowed
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now
What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
Gomenasai
I let you down
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
.... I'm surprised how clear this song describes the tears in my heart today.
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was a one of a kind
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't 'cause I
Wasn't allowed
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
I know I let you down
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend like I do now
What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomenasai
For everything
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
Gomenasai
I let you down
Gomenasai
Gomenasai
Gomenasai 'til the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
.... I'm surprised how clear this song describes the tears in my heart today.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Make a wish, then make it true!
Nothing can stop you
once you decided
to give all for something
and never fail until you got it
Nothing can stop you
if you're brave enough
to give your life
for what you want
Nothing can stop you
you just have to chose
what's worth to lose
everything else for
once you decided
to give all for something
and never fail until you got it
Nothing can stop you
if you're brave enough
to give your life
for what you want
Nothing can stop you
you just have to chose
what's worth to lose
everything else for
Friday, May 18, 2007
Trust me now
It was kind of weird
kind of special
the first time I saw your face
"Wow" was the only word that came to my mind
You may not know
I sure didn't tell you
but I liked to see your face
Even if I didn't know you
you were many times in my mind
I don't know how special this is
I just know how special it feels
And that's enough to risk it all
Come with me
Let's walk together
I would like to take your hand
Talk about anything and feel how together we touch the sky
No one gives me peace now, the way you give it to me
My soul misses your company every moment when you're not with me
Everyplace is paradise if you could only walk with me
I don't think heaven is too far
Actually I know how to get there
now that I know where you live
Let's share a moment,
share some time
why not? maybe share one life
hope has come again to my heart
the moment I saw your eyes
'Cause I trust that when I see you,
you're also looking at me
That's all I need to light my life
All I need now to survive is to see your smile
Trust me now
A moment with you can fill the eternity
of the thoughts that I have about you
I believe,
there's a time
when one has to decide his life
that time is now for me and
now I can only think of you
I don't know if everything is going to be alright
but I know nothing can be wrong if I'm with you
Trust me now
my heart beats faster when I think about you
That must be a sign
I wish I could
share this toughs
openly to you
I know you don't know how I feel
Maybe you have a clue
'Cause I miss you every moment
even if I have never really been with you
I still feel some connection
even if I can only read you thoughts
Trust me know
my heart beats faster when I think about you
That must be a sign
Now that I re-read it it doesn't fit very well but when I thought this it had the music of "Six feet from the edge" by Creed on it
kind of special
the first time I saw your face
"Wow" was the only word that came to my mind
You may not know
I sure didn't tell you
but I liked to see your face
Even if I didn't know you
you were many times in my mind
I don't know how special this is
I just know how special it feels
And that's enough to risk it all
Come with me
Let's walk together
I would like to take your hand
Talk about anything and feel how together we touch the sky
No one gives me peace now, the way you give it to me
My soul misses your company every moment when you're not with me
Everyplace is paradise if you could only walk with me
I don't think heaven is too far
Actually I know how to get there
now that I know where you live
Let's share a moment,
share some time
why not? maybe share one life
hope has come again to my heart
the moment I saw your eyes
'Cause I trust that when I see you,
you're also looking at me
That's all I need to light my life
All I need now to survive is to see your smile
Trust me now
A moment with you can fill the eternity
of the thoughts that I have about you
I believe,
there's a time
when one has to decide his life
that time is now for me and
now I can only think of you
I don't know if everything is going to be alright
but I know nothing can be wrong if I'm with you
Trust me now
my heart beats faster when I think about you
That must be a sign
I wish I could
share this toughs
openly to you
I know you don't know how I feel
Maybe you have a clue
'Cause I miss you every moment
even if I have never really been with you
I still feel some connection
even if I can only read you thoughts
Trust me know
my heart beats faster when I think about you
That must be a sign
Now that I re-read it it doesn't fit very well but when I thought this it had the music of "Six feet from the edge" by Creed on it
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