I'm so confused some times, other times I just don't know what the hell is going on

Let me forget that I loved
Let me forget that she's gone
Let me forget that I felt
Let me have new hope

Let me find a new destiny
so that I can walk my way
no matter how hard it will be
It's far worst just to stay here

Going down...

I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
would you await for me there?
at the bottom of my life.
Will you be there in the last moment?
to hold me and save me.
Can I trust in that?
'cause that's my last chance, my last hope,
I have no strength, no will to come back
I'm going into a deep, deep hole,
faster every breath
Please be there
God, please hold me in the end